Last night between 1 and 2 am I was wide awake and could have ran around the house cleaning the floor and what ever else needed doing, was that my burst of energy? I tried having a snack and relaxing but I could not relax and my restless legs were so bad that I should have stayed up and put that energy to use. Instead I ate and sat on the couch trying to calm my mind and body and then made my way back up to bed around 2:15 am where I struggled for at least a half an hour or so to fall asleep. I was awakened at 6:45 for the morning ritual pee and then was lucky enough to fall back asleep until 9:40. Needless to say, I am absolutely exhausted today and could not imagine going into labor being this tired. Believe me I would do it, well I wouldn’t have a choice, and just so you know I would be very happy to do it too!!
Yesterday as I took my nap my favorite furry monster joined me. I had already positioned myself and was falling asleep. Obi lied right in front of my stomach, right in front of the baby belly. I woke several times and at one point I could feel the baby kicking and then Obi pushing back at my belly. I guess there were dueling it out for position on the bed! Hmmm it is going to be interesting once the baby arrives and we go to nap and Obi can’t join us… 😦
In the last few days I feel like I am back in my first trimester. I feel more emotional again and my olfactory sense is heightened. I can still eat garlic which is something I could not even handle being around for about 5 months, it just seems that smells are stronger, but there isn’t the aversion like before.
My moods though are just like the first trimester. I can cry at the drop of a hat, a sad song, or a cute video. It is weird to feel like this again, so labile.
Right now it is just after 4am, I could not sleep anymore due to hunger. My favorite snack to have in the wee hours of the morning is toast with cream cheese and blueberry jam, yum! I usually sit up for a bit and try to let some of the food digest before I make my way back to bed. Did I mention the light : Sunrise: 4:30 Sunset: 23:36 and believe me it does not get that dark between sunset and sunrise, which I am sure is not helping my sleep today. We just got all new windows put in our house so I do not have blinds up yet as the finishing touches need to be done. When I head back up to bed shortly I am going to try and find the eye mask that Land bought me so that he could use his computer while I sleep, which did not work very well as I can hear him typing and still see a bit of the glow from the computer but I am hoping that it will work its magic for me today as he is sleeping and not computing.
Sitting up in bed last night was difficult, I actually needed help. And on top of that we had east indian for dinner, delish, but I was burping it up. Last night was the first time that I felt HUGE and struggled with sitting up fast enough so that nothing came out of my stomach with the burps! I realized that lying on my left side was the best as I would be closer to the edge of the bed but it also seemed that my food did not want to escape my stomach as much as when I was lying on my right side.
My friend Maria recommended this book to me and I am passing on that recommendation to anyone thinking about getting pregnant or who already is. It really reminds you how beautiful birth can be and how the female body is built to give birth. If you want to see a link to Ina May’s website click on the title of this post and then there will be a link on the page it takes you to.
Well I have made it to Monday. I continue to have occasional contractions and cramping but nothing more. I guess my uterus is just practicing, getting me ready for the real thing. The plan is to have a natural birth and I am really starting to wonder what the “real” contractions are going to feel like, the ones that I have experienced so far are like REALLY bad menstrual cramps with pain shooting up my back and down my legs, hmmm…Of course, I am open to the possibility of a medication assisted birth but I really want to be a part of the labor, I want to be able to move around and not have to deliver on my back. Also, I don’t want to have a medicated baby after delivery so that breast feeding will be that much easier for the baby. Who knows though?? We shall see how it all goes, I don’t want to put too much pressure on myself so that I am disappointed if I don’t have a natural birth.